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20, super queer, non-binary, escapism enthusiast. this blog is pretty much all hannibal and feminism. also sleepy hollow, night vale, and elementary. currently crying about bucky barnes

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Posted 14 hours ago with 750 notes (via philcoulson , org. honourinrevenge )
 #brooklyn nine nine
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I want them to be walking around in a public place, like a grocery store, and suddenly recognize what they did and dissolve into panicked tears. I want them to lie awake at night and spend hours replaying those scenes wishing through choking, pathetic sobs that they could change the endings. I want them to be terrified of being around the opposite sex because it might happen again. I want them to be so deeply ashamed of themselves that they truly believe their own parents would stop loving them if they really knew the truth. I want them to get the cold sweats and shakes whenever someone mentions the word “rape”.

I want them to look at other people who are happy, who have healthy and pleasurable sexual relationships, and feel broken. I want them to feel enraged whenever someone spouts off “just world” philosophy bullshit. I want them to avoid mirrors because they can’t stand to look at themselves. I want them to spend countless nights getting drunk so they’ll finally have the courage to commit suicide only to realize that they’re a coward (just like they already knew). I want them to spend 15 minutes of every hour in the handicap bathroom at work trying to calm themselves down. I want them to feel inescapable panic about half of the time they have sex for years after the fact. I want them to think about my face any time they’re feeling sexual pleasure or getting naked or masturbating and I want that image to crush any hope of arousal.

I want them to explain to a significant other, through hysterics, exactly what happened on those nights. I want them to fear being out in public because it feels like the truth of those experiences is written on their faces. I want them to spend years in therapy. I want people to tell them that their pain is not a big deal and that they should just stop thinking about those nights because honestly, what is it really helping? I want them to feel a deep, unabiding sadness when people tell women not to go out alone or drink too much or wear sexy clothing because they know it’s not going to help a damn thing.

I want them to feel like I know them better than anyone ever could because I was there, I know what they look like when they rape someone. I want them to feel like I’m inside them, all the time, mocking them for every failure, panic attack and sick day. I want them to believe that it’s always going to be like this. I want them to feel like trash, actual use-and-throw-away trash. I want them to feel angry and have no outlet for that anger except their own body. I want them to feel weak and useless. I want them to feel DEFINED by those experiences. I want them to feel like a monster.

I want them to feel like me.

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Reddit user twistyrockets replying to the question
‘Among the women here who have experienced sexual assault, what fate do you wish upon your attacker?’

(http://www.reddit.com/r/AskWomen/comments/1kw53i/among_the_women_here_who_have_experienced_sexual/)

This is the most accurate thing I have ever read. 

(via musictherapylove)

Im so furious, I’M SO FURIOUS that one of the top comments on here is some dude being like “I’ve never been raped before or raped someone, but what you’re describing is self-loathing and I’ve felt that too. I get it.”

Someone in the thread tells him not to co-opt people’s stories but he already got the thread running with other men being like “YEAH, I’ve felt like this before too! Self-loathing!”

So not ONLY are you going to read a person’s story of their rape survival and their experience with rape trauma and make it ALL ABOUT YOU, you’re going to slap a label and name on their experience, summarize RAPE TRAUMA as self-loathing.

AHAHAHA. I WISH IT WAS JUST SELF-LOATHING. I WISH IT WASNT ALSO SOMETIMES TOTAL DEHUMANIZATION, TO THE POINT WHERE YOU’RE ALMOST COMPLETELY DISCONNECTED FROM YOUR BODY. I WISH IT WAS SELF-LOATHING, AND NOT THE EXPERIENCE OF YOUR BODY NOT EVEN BEING YOURS WHEN SOMEONE TOUCHES THE WRONG PLACE BY ACCIDENT AND YOU CAN’T EVEN HAVE THAT, YOU CAN’T EVEN BE STROKED SOFTLY BECAUSE SUDDENLY, YOUR BODY IS NOT YOURS ANYMORE. AGAIN.

Fuck men who read that thread and think “Oh well, I’ve felt this way too.” NO YOU HAVE NOT. IF YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN RAPED, YOU HAVE NOT FELT THIS WAY. YOU DO NOT KNOW. STOP MAKING THIS ABOUT YOU.

I’m so discouraged because the poster wrote something so cuttingly, dreadfully personal, something that must have been incredibly painful to write, and the men don’t get it. THE MEN DON’T GET IT. I was hoping it would clue them in, just a tiny fucking bit, to what rape does to people, what rape does to their soul, but fucking no. No. They can’t even read something and not make it about them, they can’t have a second’s worth of compassion for another human being’s unique experience. 

I hate them so much.

(via halfhardtorock)

(Source: rhyse)

Posted 1 day ago with 10,800 notes (via halfhardtorock , org. rhyse )
 #rape  #rape culture  #well

cross-connect:

The mysterious and beautiful digital paintings of Japanese artist and illustrator, based in Tokyo, Hi aka XHXIX.

selected by Tu recepcja

Posted 2 days ago with 5,631 notes (via margotkim , org. cross-connect )
 #artgasm  #wow
Hannibal Episode Posters » Season 1 Episodes 1-4

(Source: wanda--maximoff)

Posted 3 days ago with 1,367 notes (via gatissed , org. wanda--maximoff )
 #hannibal  #blood

mechinaries:

magical creatures helping other magical creatures (✿◡‿◡)

Posted 4 days ago with 110,152 notes (via swingsetindecember , org. mechinaries )
 #artgasm  #amaze

aspidosecalis:

incompleteicarus:

Ex queen turned pirate being hunted down by the king’s men and naming her all female ship “the clit” and when asked why she replies, because the king will never find it.

Rival lesbian pirate finds ship immediately. Alliance is formed in no time.

I’m looking for this guy. Bleach blonde hair, leather jacket, British accent. Kinda sallow, but in a hot way?

(Source: spikebuffy)

emmyc:

Cabel knit.. Mabel knit!

emmyc:

Cabel knit.. Mabel knit!

Posted 1 week ago with 10,214 notes (via swingsetindecember , org. emmyc )
 #gravity falls  #fanart  #awwwwwwwwwwwwww
"It is difficult for a woman to define her feelings in language which is chiefly made by men to express theirs."
Thomas Hardy, Far from the Madding Crowd (via misswallflower)
Posted 1 week ago with 1,119 notes (via thymoss , org. misswallflower )
 #language  #sexism

Is the decor in here not American enough for you?
Elementary | 2.18 - The Hound of the Cancer Cells

Posted 1 week ago with 419 notes (via fyeahjoanlock , org. everynineyearsandthirtyfourdays )
 #elementary

darklittlefaun:

I believe in body positivity, feminism, and always using your turn signal.

Hettienne Park is cooler than you are.

(Source: pillypie-22)

Posted 1 week ago with 2,767 notes (via bicuriousfrost , org. pillypie-22 )
 #hettienne park

elk64-sketch:

Comic done for school. We had to make an 2 page adaptation of an TV show and I choosed Hannibal : ) I hope you’ll like it. I wanted to work more on it but my motivation was too low I guess. But I’m happy with the result of some pannels !

Greatly inspired by the Hannibal fanart from the artist Coey Khun : http://coeykuhn.tumblr.com/tagged/hannibal

Posted 1 week ago with 999 notes (via halleluyang , org. elk64-sketch )
 #hannibal  #fanart  #gore
shoomlah:

jeez Sansa tone it down a notch

shoomlah:

jeez Sansa tone it down a notch